I look at the window, and I see my self outdoors... tasting the fragrance of the air, or writing a sinphony that could be famous one day, having major thoughts about life porpuses,
but I lay here in this indoor cube seing those litle sparkles of light running away from my sight when I try to concentrate at them... most of the times I just wish I could be more...
but doesn't everybody feel the same?
I try to live a furfilled life, I often think about, who am I, and am I just the action of my self that shows in this materialistic world, or am I also thought even that it doesnt shows
,only in a metafisic and spiritual world... for my self its important, and I like to believe that a kind of world web of feelings and vibrations exists and that it has a purpose
 and really pulls strings in the rest of our mathematical lifes.
Yes, but does it matter? what are meaningfull matters, and what are not, I feel life in a basis of poetical justice,
but from another point of view I guess erverybody has their own world designed for their own purposes, and in their own minds they are more righteous than everybody else, including me.
I will try to separate reason from feelings, body from mind, fisical from soul... but Im afraid I will always see only my point of view... but is there one point of view and sensibility
that could be considered the more righteous one, more than any other??? I believe so, at least inside groups of beings that have the same believes in what good and bad stand for... in termes                                                                                          
of behavior to another being, to a society, the respect to every living thing, and the more important, the proud of having that respect and believing that it shapes them into purity, love,
and true ilumination.
Its not easy to wright about something that constantly changes every day or with every mood,
 like the perceptions of life to us... those oscilating feelings, because we are more than we see, and more than we feel,
because we feel too much, too often, and we change our feelings, our doubts, our certains... could all that diferent moods fisical and metafisicly be in someway related
 to that kind of world web of feelings and energies? or are we so self centred, enough not to feel all that world most of the times? if we think about it, is it when we "sleep" or when we are "asleep" from our social limits towards life... I believe everybody feels it inconsciently, but does not understand it,
 enough to recognize it,
and so... calls it another name...
but is there truelly a relation between all of us, soul creatures, fisical and methaphisical, that could explain all that we feel and we are... Im sure there is... but Im still just another being
smaller than all that... and everything I could tell you, it would just be a limited version of what I believe... and even if just for a brief moment I could find that string...     it still could be just me......